When I started my journey, it was filled with excitement, hope and a true belief it could possibly help just one person. The late nights of studying and research was easy and interesting. I found a cause that I believe was just one answer away from being transformed. So, with all the research and determination it was time to take the next steps. Starting a website, getting out them business cards, reaching out to people and other organizations. It was a good feeling to see these things finally come to pass. Everyone told me to hold on and keep pushing forward because in the beginning it would be slow going and sometimes disheartening. And yes, it has been a stagnant beginning and one that leaves me with a what do I do next feeling. But this last week There has been an overwhelming constant. This one phrase over and over again. At work, at home pretty much everywhere around me. I know you hear me but are you listening?
As much as the human side of me says this is about me and that these setbacks are frustrating. It’s the spiritual side of me that is screaming from within that I am wrong and heading down a path of hero mentality. As I troll around Liver Transplant groups on Facebook or follow personal groups, I often want to comment what The Seeking List has to offer. A website community that may give even just one more option. Another person to join a team of champions to search for a miracle. I am often met with an internal battle that leads to silence. A silence met with guilt and questions. What am I doing, why am I doing it, where am I trying go with this. All those I’s in there wasn’t what I started this for. I did not start this glorify my name but to glorify GOD’s name. So that anyone crying out for help may have an ounce of faith that GOD is listening and someone cares.
As I was praying today that phrase became clearer. I know you hear me but are you listening? This wasn’t for me but for me to share. Don’t stop talking. Don’t stop asking. Don’t stop fighting! As you fight for a life, as you fight for understanding, as you fight for answers. As you pray, cry, scream for any sign that someone is listening. When you talk to someone, and they hear you but don’t seem to be listening! Mathew 7: 7-8 tells us to keep asking, keep knocking, Keep SEEKING! So, I hope to encourage you today that when you feel like no one is listening GOD is and so am I.